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The dirty white T-shirt that he had dampened and placed over his head had long since dried, and the water that had dripped over the front onto the broken solitary wheel had evaporated, with only a tiny amount having soaked into the dry earth below to aid the scorched yellowing grass., ,Hearing Damon now singing an old indie song from the early nineties, a neighbour might have ascertained that he was now in cheerier spirits and that he was coming to terms with the misfortune that had befallen him earlier that year. The reality, sadly, was that his singing wasn’t borne of happiness but from a trance-like state of temporary self-removal from life. He was in complete denial of the death of his family; in fact, he had for so long tried to forget about reality and set himself back into the past that he was now experiencing a complete pattern of slowing time. 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Dawn had woken Damon up every morning before six o’clock recently, and still dozy from his afternoon nap in the sun in his old wheelbarrow, he lay down on the cardboard boxes and fell asleep., ,For the next couple of weeks, Damon stayed in the garage. His mind entered a strange fuzziness and his body lost all energy. His heart may still have been beating and his organs all functioning correctly, but Damon was hardly what one may call alive. He was like a snail one finds in the garden that upon closer inspection is only a shell. He had transitioned through despair into denial and had now continued down this long dark tunnel into a void of nothingness, and the dark garage suited his inner state. His sleep-wake cycles approximately doubled, adjusting to a forty-eight-hour cycle: thirty-two hours of slumbering wakefulness followed by sixteen hours of sleep. Without thought or effort, he fasted. This aestivation was the ultimate manifestation of the depths of his depression. 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